Late Night Alumni - Empty Streets

the city feels clean this time of night just empty streets

and me walking home to clear my head

i know it came as no surprise

i'm affected more than i had guessed on what was said

if the smile's not meant to be, if the heart's not ready to open

if we make it i won't see it's broken

if the smile's not meant to be, if the heart's not ready to open

if we make it i won't see how it's broken

it's the quiet time before the dawn and i'm half past making sense of it, was i wrong?

should i claim to give it all ** in a world where not much ever seems to last long

if the smile's not meant to be, if the heart's not ready to open

if we make it i won't see it's broken if the smile's not meant to be, if the heart's not ready to open if we make it i won't

see how it's broken
how it's broken (3x)
(repeats) if the smile's not meant to be, if the heart's not ready to open

if we make it i won't see it's broken

if the smile's not meant to be, if the heart's not ready to open

if we make it i won't see how it's broken
how it's broken (repeats)

Masoud feat. Josie - Leave It All Behind

Stop, leave your troubles at the door
Don’t walk into my space and try to bring me down
You know I am doing this because
Your lifeline is exposed and I won’t be the one to fault because

You don’t believe
In mystery
You ‘ve gotta have it all in front of you
You don’t believe
In mystery
You’ve gotta have it all in front of you


Chorus:

Just leave
It all behind, why can’t you
Leave
It all behind, why can’t you

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Leave it all behind, why cant you?

Chinese grandma learns how to speak english wtf

Ok. this is one of the better videos i watched this week wtf.

it gets boring after a while but still worth a watch :P

MOTHER FUCKER.

LOL

When this 2 collide.

Have you ever loved the person u hate, so much, so much ?

Have you ever hate the person you love, so much so much?

Have you ever wondered how can someone love and hate at the same time?

The more you hate a person you love.. the more you'll be hating yourself for hating the person you love and also at the same time, u'll be hating yourself even more for loving the person you hate.

Why can't it be simple, why cant I be simple? Why can't I let go? Just come and go, i don't need nobody to survive.

Why cant i be like that? Emotions make a man weak.. i need to learn how to lose all these unenecessary time wasting heart breaking shits called emotions.

I just find it taxing. Very taxing.

不值得

除了想你除了爱你, hu ~我什么什么都愿意
翻开日记整理心情, hu ~我真的真的想放弃
你始终没有爱过, 你在敷衍我 一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不从心, 无力继续
这感情不值得我犹豫, 不值得我考虑 不值得我爱过你,
这种回忆不值得我提起 , 不值得想起 不值得哭泣
这段感情早就应该放弃, 早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
这样的你不值得我恨你, 不值得我为你而坏了心情
我决定不为你而毁了心, 放弃爱你
除了想你除了爱你, hu ~我什么什么都愿意
翻开日记打开心情, hu ~我真的真的想放弃
你始终没有爱过, 你在敷衍我 一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不从心, 无力继续
这感情不值得我犹豫, 不值得我考虑 不值得我爱过你
这种回忆不值得我提起, 不值得想起 不值得哭泣
这段感情早就应该放弃, 早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
这样的你不值得我恨你, 不值得我为你而坏了心情
我决定不为你而毁了心, 不为你而放弃爱情
不为你而毁了心 我决定不为你而毁了心

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lim jiu.

Had a drink up marathon for the past 1 week. Been drinking drinking and drinking, just like the old days back in Melby. Just this time, a different crowd. I brought nemo's art of SWALLOWING / GULPING with throat wide open to fame really because people were amazed wtf. Man, i still wish i could drink like that fish .. super fish wtf. Takes years of hard work mate.

From Cactus, Alex's mansion, Decanter, Republic .. this is the day i tell myself enough is enough. Why the punishment? I used to enjoy competing with close mates, last man standing. It was fun, especially after every drinking sessions, ur bond gets stronger. I used to enjoy chogao sessions, backpackers, and even the occasional ang moh nights where we will go crazy with absinthe and desert wine? those were the days.

But these days, i drink for another reason. and i hate myself for it. its not a good alternative. i drink to drown my sorrows wtf but its not working because im immune to this shit already wtf. its like ..i wanna forget bout things so i drink..but fail coz it doesnt affect me anymore wtf. how la wei. how? so the only other alternative was.. drink more wtf.

will update with some pics later today when i get off work. my work mate is playing some song from mika. i actually kinda like it. good luck to me wtf.

i.am.lost

without you,

i am lost.

i have no goals

i have no dreams

i have no passion

i have no aims

i have no love

i have no emotions

i have no feelings

i have no will

i have no courage

i have no joy

without you,

i have nothing but a broken heart.

i wish all these could come to an end soon...

Hope. crashed. burnt. dead.

After a damn long consideration.. i decided to bring my blog back to life. The past month was hell. Heartbreaks after heartbreaks after heartbreakes.. im hurt, im depressed and i am numb. but the inner voice in me is desperately forcing me to get out of this mess.. desperately kicking me in the balls, just to wake me up from this nightmare.

honestly,

i do not know what to believe in anymore.

I used to believe when we're together, nothing can stop us from achieving our dreams, our goals.

Now I realised it was all a lie.

At this point, i really do not know how to express myself anymore. I am .. jaded. I am.. broken.

I used to hope .. i used to believe..

now im afraid of repeating the same mistakes.

On a happier note, i met some incredible inviduals today. Thanks jen!

Sea of Reds

The day the national stadium turned in to Anfield. magical.

back to you

Windswept faces on sunset avenue...
All I wanted was to get to you.
Screaming, heartfelt, my apologies - don't make a difference, cause you just can't believe.

Miles and miles keeping us apart...
Broken layers of a shattered start...
If I could rewind times we were so blind, then I'd come running back to you.

Where you are is where I wanna be.
Racing back to where my heart was free...
If I could have time to renew, then I'd come running back to you.

Pieces, shadows, faces of the doubt,
turn out all the lights without the sound
of our essence waking up the room, when I come running back to you.

Where you are is where I wanna be.
Racing back to where my heart was free...
If I could have time to renew, then I'd come running back to you.

Oh, love is where we ought to be.
Sunsets bring dawn eventually.
Give me the chance to start anew; then I'd come running back to you.

Where you are is where I wanna be.
Racing back to where my heart was free...
If I could have time to renew, then I'd come running back to you.

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this version of the song gave me goosebumps. i always thought that acoustic versions of dance music are great. this version just made my stand.

at times in life

not having the best of time currently... i realised that whenever i have this negativity stinging in me, i turn to my blog. hence the lack of updates lately.

ive been good these past few months, been happy. but ppl say good thigns come to an end, and im beginning to feel all locked up inside again . changes are not always good, personality and a character is a tough nut to crack as well.

all these while i thot i was doing the right thing, instead ive actualy hurt the person that meant most to me. epic failure i wd say. backfiring doesnt come better than this.

holding on to a belief, is, tough. mentally challenging, and exhausting. making it happen is twice the effort. how long before i collapse? to choose between life and work, i choose the latter, at present. but the only person who keeps me going, is, u. and somehow i neglected u.

im sorry.

RAWR !!!!!!!

Taken with my Canon 450D. Exploring this technology we call, photography.
I love it.

Nic Chagall - This Moment

I’ve been running on, running on empty
For way too many miles now
I’ve been flying with broken wings

And now I’m falling faster to the ground
And it’s a bitter end to a story so sweet
Like a long lost friend
That’s never found a way back to me
And I can’t deny these memories
Got me all locked up inside
And you hold the key
All that I need is this moment
To send me away with a smile on my face
I tried to leave but I turn back
On my heart remains a trace
All that I see is this moment
All day in my mind I recreate
If there was a way to get back
This feeling of chase..of chase
All that I need is this moment
This moment..

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Beautiful. One of the better tunes in this recent months. Don't usually like male vocals, but this, is good.

Death Cab For Cutie - Transatlanticism

the atlantic was born today and i'll tell you how:
the clouds above opened up and let it out.

I was standing on the surface of a perforated sphere
when the water filled every hole.
and thousands upon thousands made an ocean,
making islands where no island should go.
oh no.

those people were overjoyed; they took to their boats.
I thought it less like a lake and more like a moat.
the rhythm of my footsteps crossing flood lands to your door have been silenced forever more.
the distance is quite simply much too far for me to row
it seems farther than ever before
oh no.

I need you so much closer (x8)

-instrumental break -

I need you so much closer (x4)
so come on, come on (x4)

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This is where i find the moments with the waves. do you remember? beautiful ending credits. lines after lines of waves. do you remember?

My Kittens are damn cute mmkay wtf

Ok these are my cats wtf.
They are damn cute.
I dont know why every morning they will bite my feet.
At night they will scratch my legs.
Afternoon they will er.. sleep. wtf

Cute cute cute. and im not gay. i just love my cats wtf.